Depression: Crying at the drop of a hat
This week that just passed has left me in an emotional rut. My grandmother has been gone a year *as of November 4th* and my cousin had her baby the same day. The child looks so much like my grandmother it’s ridiculous. I could feel her all over him when I was holding him yesterday.
I haven’t been myself, and my husband has brought up having another baby…yet again. I am not emotionally stable enough to handle that. I can’t even deal with 2 children in my presence at once. Then, there is this whole Thanksgiving day issue. I wish to GOD he hadn’t told everyone we were having dinner here. I don’t need all that stress and strain to be perfect. I have enough on my plate as it is. I want to ball up and pretend the world doesn’t exist.
I still have to go shopping for Thanksgiving for stuff like candles and wine, side dishes, and whatever else. 
( Someone save me. I will be pouring out a bit of Manishewitz in memory of my grandmother this year. I don’t know if I can get through the holidays this year…even though I managed last year. This is just so taxing.
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I’m sorry that it sounds like you’re having such a hard time this year. I’ve lost both of my parents in the last 5 years and I can understand your grief to some degree. ((hugs))
Can you ask some of the people coming over for Thanks Giving dinner to each bring a dish? Sort of like a pot luck? It might be a little unconventional but I’m sure that if people did bring dishes you’d have much less to do and the holiday would be a little easier.