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Transcending Psychosis

February 3rd, 2007 · bipolar, depression, psychology

Yes I made that up. I had to. I don’t know what else to call it when you are hormonally imbalanced *thanks for making me a woman…* and on the edge of a deep depressive phase. Today I am happy because I get to go out and let off some steam tonight, but I nearly lost it over something rather annoying, but trivial. I have a pet now…a dog. I thought he would help me get a grip better…it hasn’t happened yet. He has been here 2 weeks as of yesterday. I think he highly dislikes me. Really. He loves my husband and my kid way more than he loves me. Mind you, he is my dog. But, I digress. The problem is that it feels like I have another child and I am moving through some weird phase that feels like post partum psychosis.

The meaning of transcending from Dictonary.com:

1. To pass beyond the limits of: emotions that transcend understanding.
2. To be greater than, as in intensity or power; surpass: love that transcends infatuation. See Synonyms at excel.
3. To exist above and independent of (material experience or the universe): “One never can see the thing in itself, because the mind does not transcend phenomena” (Hilaire Belloc).

And psychosis from the same:

A severe mental disorder, with or without organic damage, characterized by derangement of personality and loss of contact with reality and causing deterioration of normal social functioning.

So you can see why I have named it as such. It is a deterioration of normal social functioning into the derangement of my normal personality that is more intense than “normal” psychosis.

I took 2 fish oil pills and some ibuprofen *cuz I am in pain* and I am trying to calm down with breathing and forgiveness.

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