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Researchers of the Boston Mental Health Symposium may have found the gene that causes bipolar disorder. The information is so new, there is no other documentation released right now, but at least there is hope for people to find out beforehand whether or not the disorder will be a problem for themselves.

I am rather discontent with myself right now. I have another month or more to have an appointment with the psych but I do have their emergency number.
But what am I discontent with?

I just got finished reading this article about how Lithium cuts suicide risk in depression, not just in bipolar patients. I have heard a lot of bad things that Lithium can do, and only a few good things. I am glad that there is more information about what the drug can do for people. I [...]

I did get my Bipolar Advantage book *and cd* from the contest the other day. The first page blew me away with its raw truth. I am glad that I got the book. Even if I don’t end up being bipolar when the doc gets through with me, there are plenty of insights that can [...]

I wrote a lot yesterday. Lots of things were going through my mind. I was glad to have some paper and a pen at my disposal. Here are a few things I was thinking yesterday:

While reading information about bipolar and BPD I have found that addictive personalities run sidelong with each of these disorders. I readily admit that I have an addictive personality, as you may have seen in my previous review post. My friend also admits that she, too, has an issue with switching addictions.

I was just reading an article that really hit home for me. Where will I be in five more years? When I look back at my own life, I can see where I started to resent responsibility. I can also see where I should have taken more responsibility and made better decisions. What’s done is [...]

Thus far, these were the hardest chapters for me to read.
Chapter 3 covered interpersonal relationships. I have written before about how I am a self saboteur. I can easily go back into a number of past relationships and friendships that went stale because of my actions or attitude. Even now, my marriage teeters on the [...]

I woke up in a pretty okay mood. Even after the child has bashed my head in with screaming I am still okay. The other day I woke up in a really crappy mood. I don’t know why I wake up from day to day with a preset channel, but I do. I wish I [...]

I got the book yesterday in the mail and am now just about ready to start Chapter 4. I must say, the names in the examples given in the book could be replaced with mine and my husband’s name. The conversations between spouses are so nearly exactly identical to the ones that we have here.