Insecure
Sometimes I find that I look at women and think “God, why am I not as beautiful?” or “Why won’t my hair stay shiny and pretty like that?” I have such issues on and off with this. Sometimes I feel like the most sexy, beautiful person. Then other times I see all these young, gorgeous women and I freak out. I get all panicky and clingy thinking that my husband will see these girls and leave me for someone more desirable. Is it part of getting older and losing the elasticity of youth? I feel like I am dying inside when I see all of these women parading their beauty and youth around me. I feel like I might as well be ancient and falling apart. It makes me want to do more to make myself look just as young. Now I understand what women are thinking when they get implants, face lifts, and all that stuff. I just want to be desirable, beautiful, and vibrant for myself and my husband.
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I thought I was the only one that felt that way! It doesn’t help that on television they always talk about guys loving younger women, does it? My fiance is 7 years younger than I am, and it makes me feel SOOO insecure, like you said, especially when comments like that are made on SNL or something like that. What if he leaves me for a younger woman?
He just reassures me, as I’m sure your SO does you. But…I NEVER bring up our age difference, or how old I am. EVER.
Oh boy, I hear ya’, girl.
I struggle with the same thing – but one exception – I don’t have anyone to hold on to. I am single and I can’t seem to even date. Depression makes it hard to put my best self forward all the time, and most guys just run with fear in their eyes when I tell them or they figure it out. Argh.