Horrific flashbacks, book triggered
Holy Moses. I had flashbacks last night. I was innocently reading The Princess Bride, when I came upon a line that sent me reeling. I feign to think on it now, lest I be thrown back into the wide eyed terrors of last night. Just writing about it here is giving my stomach reason to [...]
Rescheduled appointment
I rescheduled my appointment for October 1st. New month, new set of directives I guess. My mom is going to watch the kid for the duration, hopefully at my house, so we can chill afterwards. I am slated to go in at 1pm. Right off the bat, I am going to have to make sure [...]
Mark the day: Psych finally called
yesterday. That’s right, after my crises have been averted, I finally get a call back from the psychiatrists to make an appointment for next Tuesday. Of course, it’s not a day my husband has off or even works later in the afternoon. This means I have to find a babysitter the day before and put [...]
Losing weight, lessening depression
I am finally seeing results in my fight against the bulge. The smaller my waist gets, the better I feel about myself in general. I am getting to see my abs again. Hallelujah! In my fight, I have been looking for something to help me lose the stubborn stuff, you know, my spare tire. I [...]
What was that again?
Oh yeah… the miscarriage. THAT’S what that was. Actually 2 miscarriages, but I haven’t told many people about the 2nd one in July right after the first. What’s the point in telling the entire world about my uber grief? I am tired of hearing condolences and preachings on faith. I am REALLY sick of people [...]
Why even leave?
I have been trying to get out of this house for the past 5 days… just to go out somewhere and have fun. For 4 of those days my plans have been thwarted by other people… Tonight I screwed myself out of a good time. I decided to wait around…for other people. I could have [...]





