Psychiatrist today : Dun dun DUN!!!
I have an appointment with the ‘chiatrist for the first time ever today at 2:30. I am TERRIFIED. He is just a professional man doing his job, right?
Not in my psyche, he isn’t.
I have no control over what this man does to me within the confines of his little office. No, he cannot prescribe me drugs if I don’t want them. He can’t send me to the hospital if I am not a threat to myself or others. He can’t take my child if I am not a threat to him
BUT
He could hurt me.
In so many other ways.
Yes he is a professional…but professionals aren’t exempt from sins of the flesh.
And these are the thoughts I am fighting today.
and have been fighting for two weeks.
I know in my mind that he won’t do these things.
I know.
I know.
But it doesn’t make me freak out any less.











