Impulse: Shopping
Okay so it isn’t like I break the bank when I shop. I just buy things that could really wait whenever the mood strikes. Today, for instance, I saw a Bible with free shipping for $35. Now, do I need this Bible? No. I have at least 11 Bibles I can see from where I sit. I have to breathe, walk away, pray…all because I have this insatiable urge to buy something. It’s the anxiety talking, I know. I have to keep reminding myself … or get others to do it for me… that I can’t make any purchases right now that are not for necessities. I have to pace it. I have to wait. It’s just really hard to do that when all I can think to do is buy something…ANYTHING that will quench my urge. If I buy it, the urge will pass. It only takes one thing, at most two. The things that quenched it last time were the brilliant blue mug and the crochet stitch book that I got. I didn’t need that money right away, it didn’t hurt anything. Now, I am on budget (bill pay week) so that is what is keeping me from not purchasing that one thing that will make it all better.
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Tags: shopping, impulse, borderlinepersonaltiy disorder, bpd, bipolar
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Hang in there. The good feeling from not purchasing comes in time.
I didn’t NOT purchase, though. I just bought something way cheaper… Pepsi! I felt good about curbing it down to something I really wanted that was only a few dollars.