I am falling into a spectacular bout of depression triggered by the realization of how much control I actually have over what happens in my life. Sounds stupid, right? But it’s true. There are certain things in my life that I have the power to control, but no one cares what I think so the control goes right out the window. It’s a sad realization. I am sitting here baffled at the fact that I am not going to be able to get out of doing something I truly abhor even considering.