Fight the temptation to pray for death
Yeah, I said it. I have been so sick the last week I can’t fathom being alive much longer. It’s like I am being dangled in front of death’s door and he is walking around me with his big stick saying “im not touching you!” with a menacing kid-like grin. Curse you demon sickness and [...]
Impulses: Lost gusto
It sucks to know that you only a few short months ago enjoyed doing something so much that it overtook your dreams. That’s how it was with me and my knitting. I was totally obsessed. Now, I pick up the needles, do a few stitches, and just walk away again. It is really frustrating. I [...]
Anxiety , Panic, What now
I am having the mother of anxiety attacks at this very moment. I feel like my body is going to shake itself apart at the joints, from the inside out. My stomach is running around like a rabid squirrel. I don’t know what will happen if I get up out of this chair. I think [...]
Close to the cut
Between all the crap that went on the last week and now the 2nd anniversary of my grandmother’s passing…I am so close to cutting or drinking myself into oblivion it’s sad. I just got to talk to my Man a few minutes ago. Him being gone has been taking such a toll. Tomorrow I am [...]
Im so Sick
Today is a rough day for me. Every day leading up to my husband going to training has been rough. Saturday it started getting unbearable. I flipped out and cried over a pie. A FRIGGING PIE >_< Then Sunday night, after we had a good day….I started in with anger and fear. I got anxious [...]
Where’s the hero?
I don’t know if there is a hero. Jesus/God can’t be called a hero so much as the essence of life itself. One cannot exist without the other. Jesus saved us from our sins, yes…but who saves us from ourselves?
You know you are having a bad day when
You go to type in the address for your blog, and end up typing DEPRESSION instead.
What was that again?
Oh yeah… the miscarriage. THAT’S what that was. Actually 2 miscarriages, but I haven’t told many people about the 2nd one in July right after the first. What’s the point in telling the entire world about my uber grief? I am tired of hearing condolences and preachings on faith. I am REALLY sick of people [...]
Why even leave?
I have been trying to get out of this house for the past 5 days… just to go out somewhere and have fun. For 4 of those days my plans have been thwarted by other people… Tonight I screwed myself out of a good time. I decided to wait around…for other people. I could have [...]
Anger bubbles like indigestion
I can’t keep it together today. I woke up angry. I have been angry ever since. WHY? Who knows. Nothing today is making it any better. I have a headache now. The kid is grinding his teeth on my nerves. I can’t keep myself from yelling. Everything irks me. I am so aggravated. I can’t [...]
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