I had to think about what types of resources would be available for the people in the area as they become free through this ministry. I was happy to find that there are places available that will be able to help those who have mental health issues standing in their way. There is Seattle mental health counseling which is a viable solution. They are also versed in dealing with people who are depressed. Depression is a rampant devil wreaking havoc on many a mind in this economy. Natural disasters and job loss are just two of the many events that can spur depression.

Reading through the simple to understand website, you can see that the counselor is passionate about her work. There are also testimonials from patients who have had success in the care of this particular office. You can read more for yourself. You can really get a feel for the counselor and her mannerisms. She took great care in expounding on her knowledge of her profession and her desire to create a safe environment for people to become free and grow into a successful future. You can learn more about Dianne by taking a read through what she has written. Really heartfelt and knowledgeable…I have a mind to write her directly and let her know that I am glad there are real counselors out there who truly care about their patients’ health and well being.

Blessings and love to you all.

Being a Christian comes with sacrifice anyway. It’s part and parcel of the full deal of following Christ. To follow Him means you do the things that He did even unto death. I should expect to sacrifice. Even one of the fruit of the spirit is LONG SUFFERING. It’s the way I have chosen this life. It isn’t easy, especially while coping with sacrifice and trying to keep from relapsing into psychosis.

Shallow Coffee is not at all shy about talking with others about bipolar, but she doesn’t want to deal with it either. I don’t really blame her. Admitting you have a problem, especially a mental one, can do so much to your relationships. It can do so much in the prejudging that people already do of a person once they meet. Having kids and a mental disorder also makes complications for the children sometimes. I love the way she just comes out and says what she thinks about the whole ordeal.

My notes to you: Don’t ever say you are weak due to your mental illness(es). Don’t ever think that just because your brain functions differently that it is always a hindrance to you. You have been strong enough to go through this for years and not falter. You have been stable enough to have a family, and raise them yourself. That is NOT weak. You are strong enough to admit what is wrong with you and what is going on in your mind. You are strong because you LIVE with your illnesses and have not let them destroy you. More power to you sweetie. I pray that you continue in strength!

but…

there is something new that has popped up that I now have to gain control over:

violent flashbacks of physical abuse.

Apparently my brain said YAY you are done with this other stuff, now deal with THIS!

This week on The Meltdown, I talk about regression and the guilt that come with it. I also talk about how I am doing my best to fight back.

Music: Much Like Falling by FlyLeaf

Book:
Battlefield of the Mind: Winning the Battle in Your Mind by Joyce Meyer

I’m so tired of fighting my way away from this “thing”.

Trigger: people trying to tell me that i should have more children…not just telling but berating me about it.

They said it was all in fun afterwards, but i know that it was only 2% fun and 98% true feelings on how i should do things in my family.

im tired of telling people i have 4 children. 3 of my babies are DEAD.

im tired of telling people that it’s between me, hubby, and God.

im tired of having post traumatic flash backs every time someone mentions pregnancy or babies as it pertains to me.

im just so tired.